I think about writing all the time, I mean, I even have the app on my phone so there is no excuse. Just pure laziness and maybe not knowing where to really start.
Well...here goes.
I started working in retail mgmt again BUT I am not the store manager anymore; which is both freeing and irritating at the same time. I love being able to go home and not have to think about what is going on at work. But the lack of control is absolutely horrible. Especially, when you know you would do things differently. Working this position has opened my eyes to some things though. I really hated my previous job and it showed every day. My people were terrified of me because I was never happy and they never knew how to take me so they plotted to get me out. (Still having a hard time getting over that especially since I work 2 stores down from the previous store). My manager walks in and you can instantly see the irritation in her face. She is burned out, but can't see a way out ( just like me). Her staff is terrified of her. Retail can really make you feel like the hamster in the wheel. You feel trapped because it can pay very well...and that's about it. Money makes you put up with a lot of nonsense. Don't you think??
Love life...right now? Non-existent. LOL!! I'm always conversing with someone but at this time, nothing solid. I let someone go that really meant a lot to me. The thing was, I didn't mean a lot to him. Point taken. Moving the hell on. Don't mind that bit of bitterness you hear. I've gone out with a couple of guys but no real sparks. I will tell you about this one guy...I'll call him Richard. We met on google+ and had some decent conversations via text. Seemed like a fun guy. We met and conversation was cool. He grew up with both parents. Great!! Then, he proceeds to tell me that he doesn't believe in monogamy, definitely not marriage but wait...he definitely wants kids. I looked at him like he had grown another head. He had damaged goods written all over him and I am not in the business of fixing broken souls...anymore :). **Disclaimer before I go further: I speak my mind...especially when I don't have any romantic feelings for that person.** I told that young man(29, I'm 31 LOL) he is immature for thinking that way. He believed in love and marriage before so what happened?? A broken heart and we know that a lot of men are forever broken over the first heartache. I also told him he was bitter and once he worked though those issues he would be okay. LMAO. Surprisingly, he still wanted to be my friend. We can be buddies. I'm okay with that.
My hair...
My crown of glory...
I've actually adapted pretty well to my new look even though my former boo said one of my hairstyles looked like it came from The Color Purple. I will say that I don't get the same attention from men as I did before BUT that's okay too. I figure the way has been somewhat cleared for the man that will truly love me for me. Sounds good, right? The good thing is, there is a natural hair trend going strong right now. A lot of women are embracing their natural tresses which is a really beautiful thing. Hopefully, most will keep their look once the trend fades. I know that I have gone and still going through too much to go back to the "creamy crack". I am determined to see it completely through. I'm promising myself to never get another relaxer. I like my natural hair and I'm excited to see all the different ways I'll be able to wear it once my "leave-out"(my weave girls get it) grows out. I'm taking vitamins and really trying to dink more water, so we'll see!! I'll post pics to show my progress and maybe a few of when I was rockin' my sew-ins.**Quietly, I miss the hair.** I'll get over that though, right?
Goodnight!
Muah!!
Choc
And one from the first press after taking the sew in out.
